I know that I sometimes get these hair brained ideas that get talked about on my blog. I also realize that I seem to not post for weeks and weeks and then tell the whole world how I'm feeling. Well, here I got again...for both of those things.
I was sitting in church today, not really listening because I have a 17 month old who is super "active" in church. I try, really I do, but sometimes I only hear bits and pieces and can't really make out what the whole theme of sacrament meeting was. Anyway, sitting there in church. I looked to my right and there is my husband sitting, pretty sure he was sleeping, and I thought "wow this cannot get any worse. I have no idea what is going on in church. My kid is being out of control. My husband is so tired from all of his school work he can't help. I'm so tired from being a "single" mom that I don't care. And everyone around me is probably wondering why I'm not doing anything about any of it." Well, that's seriously how I felt all day. Poor pity me, poor pity me. I then heard the end of a talk which said " 3 Nephi 27:27 'even as I am' " The sister said that was the example we needed to follow. Jesus Christ. And love as much as we could because the Lord himself had said that love will make everything else work. I thought, 'seriously? Love? I love a lot and nothing seems to get any better.'
Wow, I was in a funk today....sorry.
Anyway, I sent my sick baby and tired husband home to get some rest while I went to Primary. I currently teach eight to twelve 4 year old boys. They are different and remind me how grateful I am I have a girl cause I understand her. It was Primary as usual and I went home.
Let me get to the point here.....It wasn't until I was driving home from dinner at my in-laws that I began to understand the tiny bit that I had heard today. It was just for me to hear.
My husband and I were talking about all of the great people that we currently live by and how fantastic they are. How you would never know anything was wrong because they always are looking out for everyone else. The family that spoke in church today is one of them. The husband was violently ill for weeks before anyone even knew and then he hesitated to ask for a blessing because he was sure someone else needed the blessings more than he. I then asked about another family and my husband said, "well he has a new calling, she just had the baby, and the job situation is rocky again." I thought to myself 'Elise, when was the last time you asked someone else how they were doing and really cared to know? When did you ask how YOU could help instead of wishing someone would ask you if you needed help?' And it hit me. When did the Savior ever ask for help? Never. He was always looking for someone who need His help. When did the Savior ever say 'oh I'm so sad'? Never. He always brightened someone else's day. I need to remember the greatest example of love that there is and it's true everything else will be brighter because I will be able to shine his presence even brighter through me.
Wow, who knew I could actually get something out of the tid bit......He did and I'm glad He made me listen.